My first time conscious connected Breathwork

As now Breathwork practitioner, here is my personal story of my first time trying conscious connected Breathwork.

It was a cloudy and cold day in Stockholm in November 2018. I have signed up quite spontaneously to Emily Kuser’s (High Vibe Yoga) Women’s Self-Care training. We were about to enter a 3-day container diving deep into the wisdom of cycles, psyche and emotional world of womanhood. 

Emily is an amazing teacher and has a gift of creating space for transformation to happen. At the end of the first days there was Breathwork on the program. As many Yogis, I was thought it’s going to be some kind of pranayama. Although Yogic breathing techniques are always powerful for me, I was kind of relaxed, but I had no idea what I was just about to experience.

First we gathered closer where Emily showed us the technique of conscious connected Breathwork. It sounded interesting but still was I thinking, what can a bit of active breathing do. Afterwards all 20 of us women laid down in a circle. In the middle some deep red roses. On the altar were crystals, dark chocolate and oracle cards. Emily started to guide us into the Breathwork Session.

We began to breathe faster in and out through our open mouths. Then the music started. The songs I heard had something mystical. They were intense and heart touching.

And then it hit me. Already after the first five minutes my whole body started to feel kind of electrified. I was thinking something like “what the X?!% is happening with me?”. After 10 minutes I heard the first woman in the room bursting out into tears, followed by a second, third and so on. Until nearly all of us were either crying, mourning, laughing or screaming.

The link to the topics we worked through during the day and the connection we felt in between each other, the breathwork session began to be very intense for everyone. 

I felt the whole rainbow of emotions. I still remember how there was a moment where I breathed through some deep, old emotions. Emily sat with me during this moment, her supporting gentle touch was all I needed to feel and move through the experience. And for sure felt held by her but also the whole group.

There was one moment I felt the power of each woman in the room. During the day we talked a lot about the role of the archetypes, the history, witches and the magic of an awakened woman. When the energy in the room was on the peak it nearly felt like something forbidden, women gathering in a cave like yoga studio, expressing freely and stepping into their power.

After the session I was totally blown away. It took me quite some time to arrive fully back in my body. My hands were shaking for quite some time.

Discovering breathwork was definitely a life changing experience for me and I knew instantly that I wanted to share this tool with the world. 

For the German speakers here an article from Yogis Choice where Katrin talks about her first time experiencing conscious connected Breathwork.